With the quotes I just copied below from MLK resonating in my brain, I think I am going to heed my own goals for 2006 and check out for a while. Simplify things you know?
All the talk about the church, what should be done, what we can do, what we say and don’t say… all of my own drivel at times…. so many words…. so much is written but so little is done. I am the guiltiest of all.
Talking to my friend Zeke today made me think about what’s really important…. and what scared me is that I don’t know the answer to that question anymore.
What has happened here over the past few months has excited me and scared the shit out of me at the same time. (Thanks Billie Joe of Green Day for that line from “Bullet in the Bible”.)
How long will I go away? I don’t know. Probably not long knowing me and my big mouth. I just wanted to give everybody a heads up. (Doesn’t every blogger do this from time to time… I’ve seen it before… I love the blog world, it saved my life… I just feel the need to crawl into a hole for awhile. I am sick of all the words I write and all the words I read).
Let’s start doing stuff instead of talking and writing about stuff. (What stuff am I talking about… I don’t know, you decide – whatever you are passionate about). I know it’s all important… the talking… the writing… the doing… all of it makes a difference.
Maybe it’s just me or this 4th glass of wine talking…. who knows.
I plan on writing more on my personal site (http://stevechastain.typepad.com) since that is what so much of this is all about…me! Isn’t that what every blog is about regardless of the title? It’s what we are experiencing, what we are going through, what we think about.. our ideas, our opinions, our history, our present, our passions! Everything is run through the filter of US! Nothing is altruistic.
I don’t want to change the world. I want to change me. I am a fool according to MLK as I “proclaim myself to obscurity.”
In the midst of being away for awhile from SCP as a blogger I hope I can learn to forget myself a bit in the process.
See you guys soon… I hope.
P.S. The podcast will continue…. no worries there. I love hearing myself talk.
P.S.S. I will post links and things occasionally as they are applicable, but I am just not going to say much here about the church or SCP for awhile.
P.S.S.S. Brian McLaren is the SCP 2006 Smartest Church Person of the Year… he’s a MAC guy…. what more can I say. I knew he was a genius!
P.S.S.S.S. On second thought… things might not change at all. I might just be full of it, but geesh do I sure feel like dropping away from everything for awhile. We’ll see!