Well first, Jeff goes bye-bye…. again. No surprise there (although he claims it wasn’t his fault, I personally think it was completely his subconscious acting out…. again).
Then, the ever insightful Zeke says “Adios”.
And next, I read that Dorsey is thinking of shutting down, but he does a head-fake and proceeds to post – but who knows for how long.
So here I sit after a month of not posting understanding that shutting up might be a blessing to some, but I am nowhere near done. If I ever was really honest about the things running around my brain, this blog might go to the next level. Trust me, I am working on it, working on me, working on my life… and seeing things much more clearly than I did even three months ago (not to mention three years ago).
Why? Because of one word.
I think disconnecting can be a very healthy thing for some people. It has been for me. Let me explain…
Prior to leaving the church, I was very connected to that community of people. Prior to experiencing the breakup of my marriage, I was also very connected to my wife.
What I have found is that what I perceived as healthy connections were truly unhealthy enmeshments. To be enmeshed in something is to be entangled and intertwined.
The level of which I was enmeshed in the church and in my marriage was unhealthy for me. To flip a phrase, it caused me to not see the trees for the forest. I was so enamored of the big picture of things… that I missed the realities of the situation and what was actually happening in front of me. I didn’t bury my head in the sand, I often buried my head in the sky.
Disconnecting has caused me to see things more clearly. It has brought me back to earth.